Trying to Rest

So here it is, 3 am and I'm awake. My mind is r-a-c-i-n-g. My heart is doing the same. Are we really leaving in less than 7 days to get Ava? It just doesn't seem real. I have so much to do. The list continues to grow. I'm trying to be organized about it but it doesn't seem to be helping as my wheels spin and spin. I do have to say that mom was an incredible help to me this weekend. She endured a whopping 5-ish hours in Target on Sunday to help me gather up things to take to Vietnam and to have here at home on our return. So we did accomplish a lot there. And we got a rocking chair for the nursurey. That was also a long process that mom lovingly and patiently endured. Good ole mom. Always reliable. But there's still a long way to go. I must rest before we leave. I am trying to force my mind to stay still and not race as it does. How does one do that? I keep repeating to myself "and the peace of God that surpasses all understanding will guide your heart and MIND in Christ Jesus" and also "...everything by prayer.....". I also have to remember WHY we are going. It is for Ava. To finally have her with us. She is not counting on us to be the perfect parents and to have everything "together". She just needs the basics and lots of love. That much we can definitely provide. Yes, most likely I will forget something and be unprepared. How could we ever know everything we could possibly need? You just do what you think is best and the rest will come. It won't be perfect and I will have to remain flexible and bend when I need to bend and ENJOY it!! We are going to get our daughter!!! And that is the most important thing here, not whether or not I take the right formula. So I am going to try to relax, pray, and allow God's peace to wash over me. He's got it all in His sight, in His plan. Okay, I sorta feel a little better already.